the things I want to do are important. They are what I need to do. Regardless if you care about me and my thoughts and my feelings and my goals. I always have love working, I want to and I need to work. Not just for myself but for jamiah too. You telling me I don’t have to work doesn’t make sense to me. I’m gaining even more independence and it feels like you’re trying to take that away from me. School, I’m in a field I don’t like but it is what it is. I’m going back regardless. Living separetly makes it a bit more harder and easier all at the same time just like living together. I know for sure what I want and need. At the end of the day its always is what it is.

Here I am freezing my ass off in this truck and I just wanna go home now. Why would you leave us in here with no heat.? I’m starting to get really pissed tf off. I get cold fast and I hate being cold. If I knew it was this windy outside, I would have tripled layered up. Time need to hurry up.

There are times where I loose all my hope and faith and expections of our relationship. I question everything and I over analyze everything. There are times where I feel like ending this relationship is the best for both of us. I deserve better as much as you do. And then the feelings of how much love I have for you takes over. Its over-powering and very overwhelming. I cry, I get so emotional, and so angry, and so hurt. Because I feel like you don’t see what you’re doing to me. I try to tell you and I feel like you don’t hear what I’m saying. So it came to a point where I don’t say anything anymore. I wish you could understand what I’m feeling. And how things make me feel. I wish you would care and take me, us, into consideration.